WEEK SIX

PHOTO NUMBER THIRTY-EIGHT

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This photo is part of a product shoot I did for DIG Magazine where they featured cocktails made with Absolut Lime Vodka. I cannot express to you how nervous I was for this shoot. I think I got there like an hour early on accident because I had no idea what I was doing and I wanted to practice as long as I could so that I seemed like I was actually a photographer. Part of the reason I was so nervous was because it was my first time being published in print by a magazine. I was looking around and thinking to myself, "I am 100% not qualified...what happens if they figure that out?" I think that part of being a creative person is that what you're doing seems to come naturally. Sure, you make mistakes, but for the most part, it seems like you just barely pull it off at the last second. Because of this, you are left feeling like a fraud. You always try to prepare yourself for what you would say if someone were to figure out that you aren't actually a professional. How long does this feeling last? When will it go away? In my case, I don't think it ever will. I realize that I have an enormous amount of learning left to do before I consider myself to be great I think that it is part of what drives me now. I want to be the best so I will continue to study and learn so that I can get there. There will always be someone who is better than you, but it is up to you how you respond. Rather than giving up or getting jealous, get even and learn how they did it. 

Audrey Dawson